So many strings were holding me before...like a really long time ago.
Now I am hanging on one string. Its really really really thin; its almost transparent! Reason being that it has been holding me for a pretty long time. I don't know how long it would last...I will know when I fall.
BUT you know what? It won't break.
Because that string is Jesus. He is holding me. Giving me support and the only reason that it is only one string, its because He wants me to fully trust him. He wants me to believe that He is in control over everything. He wants me to have faith!
Well, to tell you my truth, I will confess that, doing that is not easy.
It is not simple, as human I tend to freak out! I tend to get impatient! I tend to want things my way! I tend to forget to do my part of the job! It is not easy to trust when you are scare, when your mind is telling you that you can't do it or that you should quit! Yeah...wouldn't that be an easy way out? But that doesn't change the struggles since they will always be there-it might just change shape and form.
So I am learning to be more trusting, more patient, more confident.
Its a slow process so I am just going to take a step at a time. Plus God has put some of the most amazing people on my way to help me, to support me. They are always there to encourage me, to give me a hug when I need it the most, and crack a joke to take the sadness away. I know amazing people who make my day better. Son mi sol en un dia nublado (my sun in a cloudy day).
Yes I am hanging on a string!
Because of that, I know that God is in control. Even though I face difficult times, and struggle after struggle, He will take care of me. Now I will need to learn to live day by day, blessing by blessing and victory by victory. I know that things will be alright and that everything is for the best even if there are days that I don't see it that way.
Thank you for caring!
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